Both!
I followed through with my annual dentist appointment this afternoon. No small feat, as I have missed several appointments in the last couple months and have arrived to this one precisely 30 minutes late. WHAT?! Has anyone seen Kate?
Why have we not invented a better method of obtaining oral xrays? Specifically, a method that does NOT involve jabbing the fleshy yet not so cushioned palate of my mouth (repetitively). This discomfort aside, the lead jacket was heavenly. As I felt it lift from my body, I felt my calm lift with it.
I feel like a pin ball machine on the inside. Bouncing off of experiences, human interactions, lit up and then left to a wide open space only to come in contact with another surface, propelled again but wildly, not intentionally. PING! Rapid fire ping, ping, ping, ping.
I need a swaddle blanket or a thunder jacket, a soothing, calming pressure against my body. Cool hands applied gently but firmly to my face, the slow chest rise of rhythmic breathing of another person as I fall asleep. I need to identify some modicum of internal control as the intensity of my life lifts.
In the meantime, I’m imagining myself running around Greenlake in a thunder jacket and swaddling myself in a sleep sack as I drift off to sleep.
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